I Could See Me in Her

I've mentioned this topic a time or two and said I'd write about it, so here goes. A couple weeks ago Maja and I were texting and she said something to the effect of how she keeps asking herself how I would have turned out if I had stayed in Sweden after graduation, instead of…

Audio Memories

I was minding my own business. Driving along, beebopping along to upbeat music in my car on the way to work after dropping the kids off at school. A little singing. A little behind the wheel dancing, you know... Footloose came on, so naturally, my volume and the energy of my dance like movements increased.…

I’m coming, I’m coming…

I still have plenty more to write about mother stuff, and I'm sure whatever else comes up in therapy... I've just been under the weather on top of being busy the last week... so watch this space, I'll be back soon enough. Much Love Emma

Dismissive, Absent, Manipulative, and Hateful

Slowly some pieces are coming together. I talked to one of my sisters and my BFFs who knew me as a teen to see if I could get any memory prompts. I also searched through some old sister messages on my phone. One thing that I learned was that, though I always thought of our…

A Feminist When It Suited Her

This generally was originally published as two posts in January and March 2018 on my old blog... I have merged the two posts and updated it and edited some parts out/added some new parts etc. In 2018, I came across this image while scrolling on facebook, that international women's day, attached to a Swedish news…

I’ll Give You The Fucking 83 Cents!

As promised, the Onion debacle - as written in September of 2021. The events occurred in 2017, I believe it was. (Side note: Featured Photo is me and my grandpa at our favorite Chinese Restaurant when I was ~16 - long since closed) I packed the kids up into the car and set out to…

The Disrespect part 2

I know what you're thinking - Emma sounds awfully bitter, and you know what? I can't argue with that currently. It really puts me in a bad mood the more I think about shitty things my mom has done or said. At the same time, however, if I'm going to figure out more about childhood…

The Disrespect

I mentioned last time that I would write up a post about the disrespectful and... awful behavior I've noted or endured personally from my mom as an adult - all the more reasons for keeping her at arms length and then eventually no contact. I have a lot to say, so I will try to…

I Waited 15+ Years for “Just not very nice??”

I've been remiss in writing in my therapy journal the past couple of weeks. Last week she asked me to think about some other specific instances that I have compartmentalized - other than the one timeframe I had mentioned at that time that was such a stark and noticeable shift on the daily. Perhaps if…